Thursday, July 29, 2010

On the eve of conference

Tomorrow begins the 2010 FSA International Conference. I am strangely calm and nervous at the same time. I am speaking twice--the first is a presentation all on my own, on the topic of "Finding the RIGHT Adoptive Couple". This class is specifically for expectant parents who are in the process of making their adoption plan and choosing an adoptive couple. I expect it will be a small class, as there are far more birth parents in attendance than girls who are pregnant right now. But I have had the impression that I am supposed to teach this class, and so I feel that even if there's one person in the class, I am meant to touch that one person. My second session is a panel of adoptees, which should be a piece of cake. What makes it awesome is that my birthdad Jason will be there. He's presenting on a panel of birth fathers. AND my parents will be there! So I'll be in the middle of my own adoptive triad. The only thing that would complete it more is if my son and his parents were there too. Alas!

I have to be honest, dear reader, that I have been kind of out of it for awhile now, as far as the adoption world is concerned. I mean, I've been planning this conference, which is time consuming (though not as bad this year as it was last year), and I still do a fair amount of volunteer work. But I just sort of feel disconnected. I've heard that a lot of birthmoms go through this back and forth thing, as far as their involvement and passion for adoption activities. It's weird, hard to explain. With this conference, I feel like I'm going through the motions. And I'm sure it will be a great conference. But I'm also sure I could have done a lot more to make it even better.

Adoption is important to me. My adoption experiences are a critical part of my life. And I never want my passion for adoption advocacy to fade. I don't really understand what it is that I'm going through at the moment. Honestly, I'm hoping that the conference will revitalize me.

Beyond anything else, though, I am excited for the conference as a whole. I'm looking forward to a great weekend! And I hope to see many adoption-world friends there as well. =)

14 comments:

  1. I also go through the huge interest and then the less interest. it all depends on the time of my life and what i'm currently involved in o going through. you should be proud of this year, it was amazing!

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  2. 一個人的價值,應該看他貢獻了什麼,而不是他取得了什麼............................................................

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  3. 吾錯吾錯...我平時都好鐘意用呢d~而家學多好多~thx+0+............................................................

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  4. 與朋友在一起,分擔的痛苦是減半的痛苦,分享的快樂是加倍的快樂。......................................................................

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  5. 知識可以傳授,智慧卻不行。每個人必須成為他自己。............................................................

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  6. I love your perspective and that you are an adoption advocate. I think that its amazing that you are adopted and that you a birthmom and an advocate. I am pretty sure that I've never seen those three particular roles played by one person before.
    Lacie
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  7. I just wanted to let you know that i put your BLOG on my BLog as one of my Favorites to read. Hope that was ok ....
    http://openadoptionmatters.blogspot.com/

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  8. Hi! This is cool. My brother and sister-in-law are going to an adoption conference tomorrow, too. I wonder if it's the same one.

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